I’m watching last night’s episode of Grey’s Anatomy & Yang’s explaining the miracle of “heart in a box”. I know it’s a miracle & when I saw it, I thought.. wow, amazing! But that’s all. It was just a passing thought.

But Yang’s explaining that you have to realize that it’s a miracle, or well, this is where my thought process is going.. Cause then I thought about Angry’s post about how you have to see everything as a gift. It’s all about perception. Then I thought about how everyone notices & remembers the bad, but barely even acknowledges the good. I thought about how that holds true when it comes to how my family looks at me. & I thought about how I do that, myself, to my friends, family, & peers in general. Not that I hold grudges or become an ass, but I really do remember the bad shit more than the good.

& I don’t wanna anymore. Because that heart in a box is a fuckin miracle, it’s some unheard of shit. & being exactly at where I am right now, even though I’m not really happy, is a fucking gift.